I am not feeling very cheerful at all if the truth be known.
Trying to arrange for my husband to see his daughters from his first marriage and their children has resulted in all of them seeing me as a pain. You would think I was trying to do something evil rather than trying to facilitate contact between them and see that their children get presents. It won’t surprise you to know that I got most of the presents and wrapped them all. I am quite down-hearted about it all.
As for Christmas, I am not sure my heart is fully in it this year. I keep thinking of how Dad loved his mince pies and Christmas cake and then I remember he is not here. I keep wondering where he has got to as if he just on a journey and late back home.
That makes me impatient with a man and his daughters who could see each other and be a family this Christmas. Of course, I asked them to help me this year (considering my loss and so on) by arranging things for themselves but it didn’t happen. It never does unless I stick my oar in and then when I do, they all want to tell me how I have got everything wrong, disrupted their lives, blah, blah, blah! I should give up. I just might.
Well, there must be something to be cheerful about.
1. The letters from Santa have arrived for my children via the NSPCC. I am trying to work out when would be the best time for them to get them in their little hands.
2. I have had lots of trips to the charity shop and picked up decorations and 3 stockings just in time for Christmas.
3. My hamper arrived today with a gigantic bird in it along with just about everything you need for Christmas Day.
4. School finishes tomorrow so we can have some quality family time without living to deadlines all the time.
5. When those closest to me treat me like the proverbial, I have my online friends to fall back on to reassure myself that I am actually OK and have a right to my thoughts and feelings.
6. I lost another pound and a half when I weighed in at Slimming World this week so 10 and half pounds gone in three weeks making me a slightly less gigantic bird.
Hoping you are feeling the joy this Christmas and have a good one.
This time next week it will all be over.
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Kate on Thin Ice 
Your extended family are lucky you care enough and sorry to hear you’re feeling underappreciated. Christmas warmth from this admirer and well done for finding some positives! Also great news about the weight, keep it up x
Well done on your weight loss, it’s hard this time of year with all the goodies about!
I hope you have a great Christmas regardless of your issues **hugs** x
Oh crumbs, families can be a pain and this time of year always makes it harder. I hope things look up and that you really enjoy your Christmas. As for losing the weigh… I am very jealous.. #Imuststopeatingchocolates!
Take care.
In all honesty, I’d rather skip the whole Christmas thing – always causes me so much stress but for the sake of the kids, I am trying my hardest this year to get into the festive spirit more than usual. I think the whole blogworld has helped too, because I have seen so much about Christmas on everyone’s blogs and on facebook, it has helped me feel a bit more festive. I know it is easier said that done, but give yourself time about your dad. I used to phone my mum every evening and It took me many many years before I would remember not to rush home from work and pick up the phone and dial her number and then my heart would just sink as I remembered she would not be answering the phone and I would never hear her voice again. Ten years on, I still dream about her being around and wish that it was all just a bad dream that we lost her. It obviously has got easier over the years – especially since the kids arrived but it does take time. Very well done on the continued weight loss – that is fab! I hope you feel brighter next week and I hope that you manage to have a surprisingly lovely Christmas. much love Becky xxx
Well done on the weight loss, im going to try after Christmas as im training for London Marathon then and really need to lose a stone. I hope you have a lovely Christmas i think its so much stress before and after everyone has opened their presents and had dinner then i can relax 🙂
Maybe you should stop, go on strike! You enjoy it the way you want it. I definitely think you’re worth it xx